I guess my. life is due for a reset.

I have these words from Janelle Monae to work with:

I keep my hands dirty/My mind clean/Got a new agenda/With a new dream

So. 

There's that.

I have to try because this is the great life I have - my one great chance.  I have to settle in and give it a go.

But...

It's not exactly my dream.  I have to have faith that the one who's dream it is will be enough.

It isn't but I have to settle for it. It's my bed and all...

Holding a torch for what can't be is a waste of energy.

Right?